BEING LABELED A MURDERER CAUSED ME TO HATE EVERYONE

(By: Glenn M.)

I was born in Ellsworth, Kansas, and was raised on a farm. I was the last of three kids. I have two older sisters. I was kind of different. I felt like i just didn't fit in anywhere. I remember having to go down to the barn at 5 ' 6 a.m. to help milk cows every morning. Growing up on the farm was fun though when I was young. Every Sunday us kids were made to go to Sunday school. On spring and summer days we would all go fishing and even have a picnic in different places like farm pastures with ponds on them. It was fun. 

The farm was three miles north of a small town of 600 or so called Lucas. We never seemed like we were in financial trouble with the farm and I didn't really have to work very hard. But when I was 13, my grandpa died and my dad had all the responsibility of trying to make the small dry land farm make ends meet. The pressure of that must have been bad because he drank more and the work was almost non-stop. 

I started to feel like the only reason they had me was for just to be a worker and I got rebellious. I started drinking beer and would party with friends every chance I got. That was during my 15 - 20 years of age. I got in trouble with the law. I had some DUI 's and some car wrecks. One was so bad it should have killed me. Now I know that God rescued me back then. 

I started getting a very bad reputation with people from the area after a few more wrecks, even though there were a few that I didn't cause to happen. I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. One very bad wreck I recall vividly: There were three people involved in it -- me in one car and two girls in another car. The passenger of the other car died in the accident. Later it was proven in court that the people in the other car were very drunk and the driver of the other car caused the wreck, but by that time it didn't matter, because of my bad reputation, almost everyone believed that I caused it and labeled me a murderer. 

Over the next six years my depression got very overwhelming and I almost blew my brains out. The only thing that stopped me from doing it was my girlfriend. She was the only thing I had to live for and that kept me from doing it.  

I was charged with six charges:  DUI, driving on a restricted license, careless driving, driveling left of center, and the worst one of all, aggravated vehicular homicide. 

When it was finally proven that I didn't cause the accident, it seemed like everyone hated me, and because of that, I became very resentful. That began to consume me. I got to where I hated anyone. I thought that if you didn't know who I was you would find out and form an opinion about me like everyone else did, so I felt safe if I beat you to it and hated you first. 

My girlfriend and I got married, but she was unfaithful and we got divorced. About 10 years went by and I met another woman. She got pregnant and she didn't marry me right at first. We lived together, and we would fight and eventually we broke up. 

Then we started dating again and she got pregnant again and she decided to have an abortion. By then my youngest son was six and I didn't want my girlfriend to have an abortion, but that didn't stop her.  

After being apart, again we got back together and one day she said, 'I don't want Andrew to be alone,' so we had another son. 

One day it hit me. I asked, 'How could you do that? We had a child and you ended it.' Her face turned white. 

We got married some months after that but our marriage didn't last. What had happened -- I got saved at a local church and God really impacted my life. I knew something was changing in me quickly ' for the good. I went home and told her what had happened and she laughed at me. Because of that, and physical pain from the past, I started smoking weed and that stopped the pain. We separated and ended up getting a divorce. I hid my drug use but she caught me and that contributed to the divorce, but that wasn't the real cause why we parted ways. She didn't have a connection with Jesus Christ like I had and that's what really caused it.  We lived in two different spiritual worlds you might say.

I was welding for work and after the marriage ended, I felt so brokenhearted. Then I prayed,  "God, I know you are real because the shroud of Turin is real. I have read that you love the brokenhearted and I can't imagine anyone more brokenhearted than me. I don't know what to do."

That's when He spoke to me, using my own thoughts, and if it were words, they said, 'You have to do two things: Get rid of the resentment for everyone for any reason, and tell people about Jesus.' 

WOW! That changed my life! With that came an intense feeling that time is short.

A few years went by, and I remarried, but that marriage didn't last either, although by then I was helping and telling anyone that crossed my path that they needed to be saved by Jesus because of their sins that separate them from God the Father.

God has continued to work in my life as time has passed, and lately, I have a sense of knowing that time is growing much, much shorter for people as each day passes to find salvation in Christ who don't think they need to have their sins forgiven by Jesus so they can be right with God when they die, and none of us know when that time will be when our heart stops beating.  

Some of you reading this -- your time in this life is a lot shorter than what you think, and when your life here is done, you'll answer to God for your sins, if you haven't got right with Jesus before you die.

Some of you reading this will be alive when Jesus Christ returns to earth again for every eye to see, but it will be too late for you by then. You better hurry up and decide what you're going to do about Jesus and your sins against God the Father, because time is growing much shorter.  

There, I've said what I felt I was supposed to say. Thanks for reading my brief testimony and I pray you will take my words seriously. I believe they are the words God wanted me to write.

Dear Reader - are you at peace with God? If not, you can be. Do you know what awaits you when you die? You can have the assurance from God that heaven will be your home, if you would like to be certain. You can even have that assurance RIGHT NOW! Either Jesus Christ died for your sins, or He didn't (He did!). Are you prepared to stand before God on the Judgment Day and tell Him that you didn't need the shed blood of Jesus Christ on the Cross to have your sins forgiven and get in right-standing with God? We plead with you...please don't make such a tragic mistake. 

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