(By: Paula Hardin)

I have had a lifelong depression that started when I was around six years old. I remember feeling very alone. I first tied to end my life by taking some sleeping pills. My family wanted to just sweep it under the rug. I went years without any medication. As the years went on I became more depressed. 

Five years ago I was in a real stressful job. I had to put a smile on my face like I was so happy. I was dying inside a little more each day. At this time in my life I didn't know Christ. I did not grow up in church and I was not afraid to die. I went for three months daily telling myself I wanted to die. I started to distance myself from my family. I then convinced myself they would be better off without me. I decided that March 6, 2006 was the day I was going to die. 

I said goodbye to my co-workers knowing I would never see them again. I went home and actually shot myself in the chest. The moment after, I screamed "OH GOD!" 

I had called His name. 

My husband came home just in time and called 911. I remember it got real dark when all of a sudden there was this white bright light. It was very calming. I began to see this little girl running in real green grass. The colors were so vivid. As I looked closer the little girl was me. The next thing I remember I was around 13; I don't remember the picture - I just know I was happy. 

The last thing I remember I was looking at myself getting married in 1985. I was not at the same level as before. I was up looking down at the altar, when all of a sudden the movie just closed up. 

I awoke and the paramedic's was working on me. I awoke three days later in the hospital. I testified what had happened to me not long after I awoke. I knew it was a Divine Intervention. The doctors was amazed I had survived. 

My life changed that day. I am blessed by the grace of God. I knew there was a God and no one was to tell me different. For years I lived with tremendous guilt. I became involved in a local church when I was invited by a dear friend. I enjoyed it and liked the pastor. I was baptized in April 2009. 

I have learned that God forgives us for our sins. I have been truly blessed. I attend therapy and take a combination of medications. I am a member of the Depression and Bipolar Support Association and we meet twice a month. I believe I survived to help others with depression. I have written many things and I have also done a live show on the internet regarding suicide. If I can just help one person with my story then I have made a difference. I have finally found peace in God.

Email:  paulahardin64@sbcglobal.net 

Dear Reader - are you at peace with God?  If not, you can be. Do you know what awaits you when you die? You can have the assurance from God that heaven will be your home, if you would like to be certain. You can even have that assurance RIGHT NOW!  Either Jesus Christ died for your sins, or He didn't (He did!). Are you prepared to stand before God on the Judgment Day and tell Him that you didn't need the shed blood of Jesus Christ on the Cross to have your sins forgiven and get in right-standing with God? We plead with you...please don't make such a tragic mistake. 

To get to know God, to be at peace with God, to have your sins forgiven, to make certain heaven will be your home for eternity, to make certain that you are in right-standing with God right now ... please click here to help you understand the importance of being reconciled to God. What you do about being reconciled to God will determine where you will spend eternity, precious one. Your decision to be reconciled to God is the most important decision you'll ever make in this life, because in Christ, it is impossible to put a value on the worth of your soul in light of eternity.


JESUS DID IT! and...


Remember:  All that we do in this life comes back to our God-given purpose which is to serve and glorify God. The money and assets we accumulate, the fame and power we've attained or seek to attain - all of the things of this nature will one day pass away, but those lives of others we impact for Jesus Christ will last for eternity, and we will be rewarded for the part we helped play by impacting those lives ... for eternity.
(Matthew 6:19-21 is our assurance)