Steve Aman was a Vietnam Vet who became entrapped in the world of drug addiction and international drug smuggling. There are many valuable lessons to be learned from this testimony, especially for those who have been painfully hurt from their past.
This is a testimony of what can happen in a person’s life when trauma strikes them at a young age, especially over and over, and rather than have someone help them understand the importance of forgiving the one or ones who caused the trauma, but instead they keep that anger inside them ... it is likened to the equivalent of swallowing a stick of dynamite with a slow burning fuse. When anger gets bottled up and stays bottled up, that person becomes highly vulnerable for evil to start controlling them like puppets on a string, without their even realizing what is going on. Steve became one of those unfortunate individuals who let anger bottle up inside him, like multitudes of others have tragically done.
Stored anger is like water and fertilizer upon weeds. Weeds grow on their own, but when a lot of water and fertilizer is added to them, they grow out of control. Weeds that grow out of control will over-power every other good plant around them, and literally smother the life out of them. Weeds take over everything if you let them, yet they produce absolutely nothing of value that contributes to life. Rather, they choke out life. Repressed, stuffed anger will do the very same thing: Choke the life right out of person. First spiritually, secondly emotionally, and last of all, physically.
People who have no use for the Christian Bible probably are not aware of what God says in it about anger. Of all emotions, God tells us in the Bible that if we don’t deal with it quickly - by sundown - it can open a door for evil to take over much of one’s life.
No where else does it say in the Bible these very words:
Be angry, and do not sin: do not let the sun go down on your wrath, nor give place to the devil. – Ephesians 4:26-27
Here it is telling us that we all get angry from time to time, but in being angry, don’t let it continue to fester in us. Because if we allow it to fester in us, we will be giving potential place to evil spirits to take up residence around us which will then allow them to control our behavior, especially in weak moments. As flies are attracted to out-houses in August, so are demon spirits attracted to those who stay angry at someone else - angry at situations - angry with themselves.
God’s remedy for keeping us protected from evil spirits desiring to affect our minds is to exhort us to allow the Holy Spirit to help us dethrone anger insides us quickly. How does God tells us to dethrone anger quickly inside us? To forgive the person who has hurt us. For those who have been hurt and wounded so harshly, how can they possibly find it within themselves to be able to forgive? By doing so through the power and strength that Christ provides for us. (See: Philippians 4:13).
To a proud person – an independent person – a rebellious person – forgiving the person who has harmed us is the LAST thing they want to do! What they want to do is harm the person BACK in some way; to inflict pain back on the person who inflicted pain on THEM; to see justice done. Either that, or in many cases, to try to deaden their pain through various means. Drugs, alcohol, sexuality ... these seem to be the most common means for most people to try to deaden their pain. There are other things as well to try to deaden it, but we won't address those things in this brief writing.
Please allow me to take you on a little detour here, if you happen to be struggling regarding the conflict we can have over being exhorted to forgive those who have done us wrong in some way in the Bible. Sense WHEN did God promise that the Bible is going to make human sense all the time? Anyone who has read the Bible at all and tries to make SENSE out of it logically will throw it in the trash faster than a used Kleenex, more often than not.
Did it make any “SENSE” for God to die on the cross and take the punishment for the sins of every person born on this planet? Not to our human intellect, it surely did not.
Did it make any "SENSE" for God then to forgive us of our wrongdoing against Him and others, though He promises that He WILL if we make Jesus Christ our Savior and Lord, AND we are willing to forgive others?
God has never been interested in our human opinion or logic. He has only been interested in finding people who will believe what He says, and act positively on it – not find reasons to scoff at it, or discard it, or remain in denial to it.
Most people live and die on this planet and never figure out that life is one big test for them. God gave them life to see what they would do with it. In giving them life, He has allowed certain conflicts to come into each of our lives, primarily to see what we are going to do with those conflicts.
God has given humanity two choices when conflict comes into our lives. To handle that conflict however we see fit to handle it at the time, or do what God says we are to do to deal with that conflict according to the Bible.
When we are wronged by someone, God tells us to forgive that person QUICKLY for our OWN good – not necessarily THEIR good (unless we plan on murdering the person anyway, or doing them great harm in some other way).
Forgiving someone (or something, such as a local church, a business, your country) who has hurt you really bad is the most painful test most any person will ever have to take. But the promise God gives us is that when we forgive OTHERS who hurt us, we can have assurance God will forgive US when we ask Him to.
On the other side of the coin, God says that if we refuse to forgive others, He will NOT forgive us. You will find that sobering warning in the Bible in Matthew 6:14-15.
Not only does God command us to forgive those who hurt us – He also tells us to pray for them! Do you want a sensible answer as to why He tells us to do THAT? Because in our praying for them, it keeps our anger from reigniting towards them.
The one thing our human intellect has a very difficult time comprehending is that everything God has asked us to do in the New Testament Bible, is GOOD for us. When we can begin to realize that fact, forgiving our enemies and praying for our enemies is not just something we HAVE to do as Christians, but rather, is WISE to do!
[Just a quick note regarding forgiveness, to keep things in there proper perspective. Forgiving those who have hurt us doesn't mean they are not to be punished for their crime if they have broken the law. Nor does it mean that we aren't to protect ourselves or our loved ones in life-threatening situations].
Steve passed into eternity some years back, and I believe God wants His testimony to be posted, for others to profit by it. I know Steve and some of his family would as well. Steve's attitude at the time I asked him to pray about letting me film his testimony was, "Hey - if my testimony will help one other person, then I'll go ahead and try to share it as best I can, and you can film me, and use the tape however you feel God wants you to."
Just for the record ... the FIRST time Steve shared on camera, I couldn't get peace from the Holy Spirit to release that video footage. Steve became so graphic about so many past events, I doubt that few could get through what he shared. For instance, the young Vietnamese lady he married that he shares about in his testimony, and was killed in front of him while they had him drugged up, but yet he watched while they did it -- HOW they killed her is nothing less than the worse horror movie you could possibly imagine. Steve shared about it graphically, which was so evil in what they did to her before killing her, I just couldn't get peace to allow that to go out publicly, because it involved sexual degradation of the most evil kind. Other things he shared were also much too graphic for public consumption, thus I asked Steve to share a SECOND time at a later date, which he did, only doing so by leaving a lot of the graphic details of his past obscure.
– Norm Rasmussen, Director, Precious Testimonies
To View Steve's testimony: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4
Dear Reader - are you at peace with God? If not, you can be. Do you know what awaits you when you die? You can have the assurance from the Holy Spirit that heaven will be your home, if you would like to be certain. Either Jesus Christ died for yours sins, or He didn't (He did!). Are you prepared to stand before God on the Judgment Day and tell Him that you didn't need the shed blood of Jesus Christ on the Cross to cover your sins? We plead with you ... please don't make such a tragic mistake.
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THE DEVASTATION OF BOTTLED-UP ANGER
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